DYING IS FINE(BUT DEATH

the title of this post has THREE MEANINGS! my mother and i were sick last week and watched two-three hours of kimora: the fabulous life and the rachel zoe project. i was especially inspired by zoe's ridiculous phrases including "i die" for just about everything. also the other day on the radio i heard that song with that terrible title, "i just died (in your arms tonight)" (or is it "(i just died) in your arms tonight"?) also i'm seeing ra ra riot tomorrow and know all the words to their fantastic fantastic dying is fine as well as most of the words to the e.e. cummings poem it's based on.
ANYWAY...

1. I JUST DIED (IN A BAD WAY):
ELVIS COSTELLO SINGS ON NEW FALL OUT BOY SONG.
i'm not even going to delve into how much this breaks my heart.

2. I JUST DIED (OF JEALOUSY):
i don't really 100% love this band called fucked up (seriously, that's the name of the band). i am, however, ridiculously awed by the apparent hystericallity / total awesomeness of this FREE 12 HOUR LONG SHOW they played last night in the bowery, which, of course, i did not attend, because it was a school night. i must confess that looking at pictures and things of these kinds of shows gets my blood boiling a little and gets me thirsting for the time in eighth and ninth grade that i was all up on the scene (which, in westchester, is obviously not so awesome). even more depressing is the fact that apparently it was full of people i would consider famous. plus, look at that girl's outfit. i die, of sadness. the village voice almost made me cry a second ago.

3. I JUST DIED (OF AWESOME):
SMELLS LIKE TEEN SPIRIT (NIRVANA COVER, BUT IF YOU DIDN'T KNOW THIS WHY AM I ASSOCIATING WITH YOU, EVEN INDIRECTLY, OVER THE INTERNET?????) --- OF MONTREAL + ANDREW, OF MGMT

4. I JUST DIED (BECAUSE NO ONE CAN COME TO RA RA RIOT WITH ME TOMORROW):
i will probably be going BY MYSELF or with my musician friend, ANTHONY. so we'll see. it will be ridiculously awesome. i've never seen ra ra riot in an actual 'concert setting' before, so it remains to be seen just how ridiculously awesome it will be, but as of now i have enough faith in them that i know, without doubt or concern, that they will blow my mind (lighters in da air!)